Lost In Beauty-

Thursday, June 30, 2005

finally another guy that captures mi heart...
superstar M3 derrick!!! OMG he is so cute n he sing veri well 2... tks god he is nt voted out..
a note to min: he is mine cos he is cute... hmm i wil leave M1 wei cong to candy and for u ?? i tink... de kiddy wan ba... cos his eyes veri small den ur big ma so balance... wahahahaha... bu yao gan xie wo... if nt u sat den tel mi...

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Monday, June 27, 2005

went out wif candy 2day, we went to sakae for dinner, and candy take note: de wan tat u say nice is CHAWAMUSHI... den we went to see wat movie are showing nw bt all de cinema has onli abt 5 to 6 movies playing... n i mis de madagascar since de last show is 3+ in de afternn.. so after much consideration n walking frm tm to century to tm to century again... we decided since there ar no shows we ar interested we watched the "initial D" boy was i wrong wen i even suggested de movie may be kinda boring... OMG de show is so damm NICE... veri funi 2... bt we have to give jay chou, edison, and shawn the credit lar, they reali added a BIG BIG bonus to the show... especially jay since he reali shines in the movie... jus simply fell in love during the beginning of the show... ohh and min ar u can go watch it wif ur frens ma rite... or buy vcds, we wil pei u watch if u pay for us lar bt i tink haf 2 wait LONG LONG... hahaha we go watch charlie de movie den ok...

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Sunday, June 26, 2005

we were all walking on a straight road, bt sumhw they began 2 walk left or walk 2 de right, wen i looked 2 mi left n right i realise i m de onli one walking straight... was i wrong in de 1st place nt follwing wat they do n walk 2 mi own way?? or was i correct since i fell down de least no. of times... was i rite to protect miself or shld i try to trust others?? invite them to mi life??

mi world is stagnant, jus encircling a few pple, mayb i was wrong, mayb i shld expand mi circle, mayb i shld nt care so much abt others n jus enjoy miself... y shld i care so much wen they dun even haf time 2 care abt u, since they haf so much other tings n pple 2 care.. i shld change mi personality, be sociable be sum1 tat every1 likes...

bt....

tat is nt mi... so de only way out is love miself... other den mi family hu reali love mi, i wil stil protect miself frm others... i wont get hurt, no betrayal, no jealousy, no lies, no nth... yes it wil be boring bt i m a boring person.. i haf mi own dreams 2 pursue, own family 2 love n own tings 2 do...

it is a bonus since i love protecting miself....

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Wednesday, June 22, 2005

ok let mi get tis straight... i haf a bad habit a REALI bad wan.. i dun like 2 be frens wif guys i liked be4.. nt de kind of crush type those i reali liked n had sum communication... i tend 2 nt only nt be frens wif them i tend 2 dislike them as well... dun ask mi y i dunnoe miself.. n except for those guys hu i nid 2 work wif or can joke wif or like, i wil den make de effort 2 reali continue the sms conversion... i m strange i noe.. nt veri sociable i noe...

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Tuesday, June 21, 2005

went out wif miss porky 2day... actuali we wanted 2 go watch a movie bt miss porky dun wanna watch the madagascar movie... i wanna watch leh den tot of watching ghost train n premonition bt porky again say dunwan... fussy pork... wahahaha... aniway wen we mit up we say we have both eaten quite full bt dunnoe y we ended up in long john silver, we upsize our drinks n even added colesaw... *faint* den we sat there n chat n gossip lar.. we went This Fashion after tat we went there nt 2 shop bt 2 laugh at their hilarious clothes... after tat we decided 2 walk home, along de way we chit chatted.. quite nice lar actually, jus toking althou i feel de road can be longer cos stil got things 2 tok abt.. bt wen i reach hm my feet is aching!!! looking 4ward 2 de singing session... in conclusion, jus wen i tot tat is so nice of min 2 ask mi out, she ask mi 2 help her do sumting... so desu ne...

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Monday, June 20, 2005

i dunnoe whether m i 2 sensitive or wat bt sum1 changed... or at least mi sixth sense told mi so.. i dun lik de changed n if tat change remains, i wont lik u animore.. mayb i wont say directly or i wont even say it out... mayb i shld be patient.. u ar nt hu i noe animore.. a relationship (frenship, boy-gal relationship) wif sumone else (excluding family) can be so fragile, it can be broken within a short period of time...

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Saturday, June 18, 2005

i jus realize sumting... i may nt haf a family in de future... y?? cos i dun like KIDS!!! erm i like kids at de age of 5 n below, above tat i m nt reali interested.. n if de kid is cute i dun mind, bt if de kid is nt adorable n annoys mi, i would gif them a tight slap, of course i wil do tat in mi heart cos i dun wanna get hit by their parents... i jus dunnoe hw 2 make those "sooo cuteeee... kuchi kuchi " faces... i told mi mum of cos she is abit worried cos she wont be a grandma bt stil haf mi bro ma... bt hu noes mayb i wil find mi mother instincts in de future... oh n another eg.i was at mi ahma hse den mi aunt is there, den she said she wanted 2 watch de yu le bai fen bai bt wen she got de call frm her husband asking if she wanna fetch their son 2gether she immediately went down.. den i told mi mum, "if i was her i would rather stay n home 2 watch de show, den ask mi husband 2 fetch mi son on his own"... c i have no motherly love AT ALL... i cant imagine slogging out mi entire life bt all mi hard earned moni going 2 mi children.. wat if they abandon mi wen they grow up... so i must say I LOVE MI MUM N DAD!!! parents are de best... wrking their entire life jus 2 pay for our expenses, i will DEFINITELY love them wif all mi heart... oh n min n candy de plan wont work since if we were 2 wait til 25yrs, we each haf 2 cum out wif $30000+ , i wont haf tat much... worst cum 2 worst i wil do it on mi own...

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Tuesday, June 14, 2005

i m so excited... excited abt wat u may ask... in de near future i hope tat mi n besties can reali set up de business n it wil be successful as well... den we can buy a house n stay 2gether, our parents can live comfortably n travel around de world wenever they wan 2... though de business is nt mi ultimate dream, it is mi second wish 2... of cos i hope i can accomplish both dreams... all for one ULTIMATE MAIN GOAL... 2 mit sum1 i luv dearly... though it seems impossible n stupid bt i stil love him down deep inside mi heart... wen wil i ever gif up?? till de day he came right infront of mi n say "i dun like u... dun waste ur time animore"... i wil gif up in tis life bt i wil look 4ward in loving him de next life ... i sumtimes wonder 2 miself is there reali love wen u dun even noe de person... de ans is... i dunnoe... of cos i wil stil mit guys nw, stil haf crush 4 pple bt jus sumware deep down there wil always be a place 4 tat special sum1...
ending conclusion: i wil remain 2 work 2wards mi goal be a silly fool for him, n no drama no drama at all...

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Monday, June 13, 2005

wen i dream of sumting beautiful i nva wanna wake up, i wanna live in tat dream 4ever... bt no matter hw sweet mi dream is , in de end i wil stil wake up frm tat dream... i noe wen u haf been living in a dream for months, or even yrs, den sum day all of a sudden came a "BANG" sum one crushed it, destroy it, it wil definitely be so hard 2 belief... bt at least u noe all along tat was a dream... den u ar faced wif de harsh reality... de prince charming u once loved once kissed, was a ugly frog in disguise... let mi tel u a story...
all along a princess n a prince had been living in a castle, secluded, guarded... bt nevertheless sweet n blissful... de princess had so much expectations so much hope, given so much of her love... near de castle there was a cottage, hu once live 3 dwarfs, one named cute one named extra n another named pretty... bt 1 day pretty went missing they knew pretty becum a princess living happily, though they missed her bt they ar happy she found a prince... den 1 day pretty came back crying.. her prince left her... she had given so much...bt wat can de 2 dwarfs do?? so she came back living wif de 2 dwarfs though nt as big as de castle nt as grand as de castle, she knew she wil nva be alone nva be hurt... de 2 dwarf can only give her another dream tat is living wif them n another dream 2 pursue 2gether.. since den they live happily ever after... mayb some day their real prince charming may cum... THE END...

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Sunday, June 12, 2005

u wil always fall on de way all of us do... mayb different situation... jus tink of it as a part n parcel of life, if u tink u fell down veri hard, wil u feel so pain de nxt time u fell down frm other tings or even frm de same ting... i always belief tat u wil be a stronger person wen u fall n climb up again... rmb sum other pple fell down even harder bt they stil climb up even w/o any1 2 guide them along or be by their side...
giving up sum1 is hard bt forgetting tat sum1 is even much more harder i noe tat miself...
there ar a few choices tat u haf wen he said he wanna gif up:
a)holding on nt letting go (hard)
b)hoping he wil change his mind, waiting for him (harder)
c) letting him go (hardest)
u choose (c).. we ar proud of u reali...
dun say u wil try 2 be tis or tat cos u mus be tis n tat... understand??

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Thursday, June 09, 2005

i haf realise tat recently i haf been getting lamer n lamer, n lazier n lazier... skipping tutorials n lectures bt mi timetable is so flexible... n abt de lamer thingy i realise it wen i was wif mi fren... i was wif mi tutorial fren n we were toking n walking... normally, i would have lots of funni things 2 say bt den sumhow i said sumting tat i would considered as lame n so CHI... NA.... thou she laugh bt i tink tat is jus 2 save mi frm embarassment.... OMG mi inspiration is leaving mi n den wat is left wil be an empty shell wif mi irritating face... i wont be interesting n funni animore n mi besties n frens wil leave mi... sob sob... (i noe it sounds dramatic bt i m trying mi best to imitate min) wahahaha.....

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Thursday, June 02, 2005

yTd went out wiF mi beSties.. we had a great time taking neoprints n eating n gossiping... i belief if we could fork out time next time we would definitely go take neoprints again... de machine at far east is superb they haf lik theme for each foto so we can act out de theme rather den jus smile n posing pretty in every foto... bt de onli mei zhong bu zhu is tat candy can onli join us ard 6+... bt it has been also a fulfilling trip since i n candy both bought wat we wanted... bt since jiamin is on budget she cant spent much... i finally figure mi fav clothes shop... n de feeling is actuali quite wonderful.. so nxt time wenever i wan 2 buy sum clothes i would definitely visit de shop at HEEREN... we ar going 2 haf a mahjong session tis sat at candy hse so i m quite excited abt it...

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