Lost In Beauty-

Tuesday, August 30, 2005

erm i would like 2 update on hw i was feeling tis few days n de few wks be4.. i didn't take notice of a guy til sometime, i was drawn 2 him by his character.. i tot in mi entire life i would not find a guy as special as zaizai, n would not find sum1 tat can even replace zaizai.. bt i found him.. even if he is nt as shuai as zai, nt as tall as zai, bt i found him...
i n him ar nt even consider frens, cos we didn't speak more den 20 words ba.. wahaha.. bt thru mi research i noe he is a great guy, a veri great guy.. i dun tink i haf ever met sum1 as great as him in mi life til nw... of cos tat exclude god cos he is de greatest..
aniway i juz realise a few days be4 tat i was tinking too much, tat guy didn't even noe i exist ba, nor took notice of mi.. of cos i was deal wif a great blow.. n was kinda depressed n sad.. bt i rmb he told his fren tat reading de bible helps.. so i decided 2 read de bible, n reali it helps alot!!!!!!!!! i love jesus so much so much... i realise hw much i haf sinned be4, n i regret le.. n i wil love him for de rest of mi life..
i noe jesus has his plans, n he wil arrange a great guy 4 mi even if it is nt him.. of cos i hope it wil be him cos he too love jesus lots...
jus kiping mi *fingers cross*
a chorus of a song nt sure of it's title bt i tink shld be "we ar de reason"
"we ar de reason tat he gave his life
we ar de reason tat he suffered n die
to a world tat was lost he give all he could give
to show us de reason to live"

wil post another lyrics wen i blog again.. tak care n bless al mi loved ones...=)

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Sunday, August 28, 2005

exams ar cuming!! quite excited as den it wil be de end of sems 2.1 le... bt of cos i wil miz mi frens in de class.. luckily buyi wil be in de same class as mi nxt sems... aniway came across tis movie on ch 5.. a movie starring jet li (li lian jie).. OMG!! he is so shuai in de movie.. wen he fight i wil *faint*.. wahahaha... he cool cool de haiz dunnoe hw 2 describe.. i mean in de show lar..
oh n de movie is called kiss of the dragon if i m nt wrg..
ytd wen 2 min hse 2 ply mahjong, win abit actuali planning 2 stay overnite at her hse bt decided nt, erm dun reali lik 2 stay in pple hse n bath there n etc...
bt i did enjoy miself, her frens ar al quite frenly, funi bt did piss mi alittle... hehe... aniway glad 2 c her so xing fu wif her benny.. haha..

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Wednesday, August 24, 2005

tHe sickO~~
i was going sch 2day n along de way i mit a ah pek.. he was smiling at mi nt de sincere type of smile bt de perverted smile.. of cos i didn't smile back so i kept walking on.. i was listening 2 music wen i heard de ah pek shouting sumting.. i took down mi earphone n turn back, n he was standing at de same spot looking at mi n shouted "come" (in chinese)..
i turn back n kept walking i was afraid he would follow mi or grab mi.. cos no1 was nearby, n de distance bet mi n de sicko is quite near, de 1st time in mi life, i finally understood wat is de meaning of breaking out in cold sweat.. i was having goosebumps and had butterflies in mi stomach (in a bad way)...
so i kip walking on nt turning around and wen i reach de traffic area, n there were JC students i turn back n see, he was standing there stil looking at me... "AHHHH!!!" irritating sicko perverted pig....
so i called mi dad n he told mi 2 cor de police if he was following mi, i was quite disturbed after de incident.. i was even quite afraid 2 cum hm miself... bt luckily nth happen.. phew...

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Friday, August 19, 2005

i would like 2 update on mi previous entry.. i haf finish reading de 2nd book n it was so GOOD!!! especially de last part so touching.. reali veri touching..

17 August 2005
aniway on wed.. i went 2 do a survey n i got $30 jus clicking on de computer... so i was quite happi.. den i went to oriental to wrk.. turns out lots of mi secondary sch fren is wrking there... erm bt i dun tink de job suit mi cos it was veri tiring.. mi hand stil ache til nw... i tink it is also due 2 mi nt exercising regularly lar..

18 August 2005
it was raining wen i went 2 sch.. i enjoy rainy days wen i m home.. bt nt wen i m outside.. y??
due 2 de strong wind, i cant hold de umbrella properly i haf 2 hold it wif mi both hands and stil it wil be blown here n there... -_-''
after lesson i went hm n had mi mini steamboat alone.. mi bro subsequently ordered KFC.. actuali i dun reali like KFC delivery cos de chicken is always cold.. nt like pizza hut.. bt mi bro wanted 2 eat KFC so we ordered...
de next part of tis story will be starring mi dog, dodo tan, de lead actor..
we were having de KFC n toking abt recent movies, jus den de lead actor started to "patrol" around de place we will having supper.. tat is his daily routine, jus 2 try his luck whether it wil "rain" some pieces of chicken or colesaw n so on... much 2 his disappointment of cos...
den his 2nd plan is 2 stare at us or kindly speaking, look at us... at de same time, showing de "i haf not eaten food 4 days" look.. den i told mi bro if he was roaming round de coffee shops i tink majority will spare him food... of cos 2 us his plan failed terribly...
but he nva failed 2 amused us wif his repeated action...
he was given some chicken later as well as mi de other dog pepper... dodo for amusing us and pepper 4 keeping quiet..

mi dad came hm n it was quite late le so i was lying on mi bed n he came in mi rm to use de com... i was toking n toking n asking him questions (he was plying games), wen he said "u tok so much go n slp lar".. -_-" so i told him hw fortunate he is since i was stil willing 2 tok 2 him at tis age.. bt he reply wif "bt u tok nonsense"... -_-'''' i did explain tat de questions ar all abt mi childhood bt after tat i decided 2 stop toking n drift 2 slp...

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Monday, August 15, 2005

i want to share 2 books tat i read... 1stly, a book called "a child called it" the book talks about in de california history, the most severly abused child case... it is not gruesome or aniting, de child hu was abused wrote the book after he grew up..
of cos u may be turn off by all de "SICK" acts of his mother bt i was really captivated by his fighting spirit.. i finish reading it abt 2 hrs + becos i didn't wan to put it down..
i was so "into" de book... de worst part is de abuser is his birth mother nt his stepmother.. lik in newspaper wen we read abt abused cases we will feel sad and sorry for de child.. bt rather den feeling sad u grew a admiration for de child in de book.. i dunnoe hw 2 put down in words bt i guess u all haf 2 tak a look urself ba..

aniway de 2nd bk i m currently reading is "the five people u mit in heaven", it is nt a scary story bt rather showing u wat might happen afterlife.. de author lost a uncle n he wrote down de last few mins he spent wen he is alive n den after he died... de author belief that de 5 person u wil mit is de person tat crosses ur path of life or hold a important chapter twist in your life... it is veri interesting wen u read, hw he wrote it...
bt i was reading it on de way home wen a sentence nearly made mi broke out in tears.. i noe de reason may be i m too emotional bt at least it triggers mi tearduct...
de sentences is "sometimes when you sacrifice something precious, you're not really losing it. you're just passing it on to someone else." i jus it is really veri "wei da" of de person lar...

after tat i will search more books mi bro bought n share them wif u... tat is mi besties lar cos i tink no1 wil cum n read mi blog.. wahahahahaha... so candy n min... i wil force u 2 2 read frm nw hehehe....

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Thursday, August 11, 2005

been feeling kinda sick 2day... abit dizzy n wen i was on de bus i nearly puke.. mayb 2 much slp... hahaha... aniway i found out a way 2 relax miself... wen i just woke up in de morning i would normally listen 2 mi mp3 while lying on mi bed... den i jus close mi eyes n enjoy de music.. it is reali veri relaxing 4 mi lar... den mi stomach wil start reminding mi tat is is empty n would like food 2 be in there... den i would drag miself up...
tis wk is considered a holiday wk ba... cos i haf onli classes on mon n thur, haiz bt i dun reali feel tat happy...
aniway i got de JOB!!! starting wrk on wed!! sounds excited rite?? bt hehe i m not tat excited lar... i would prefer nt wrking at all...
jus wondering wat on earth ar de inhuman people tinking while they hurt small animals n even people.. i mean dun they even feel a tiny little tinge of guilt n disgust?? wen they set fire on de small kitty ar they enjoying it while watching de kitty burn 2 death?? y ar they lik tat?? jus wonder hw can a human actuali dun feel aniting while causing hurt 2 another living thing n worst enjoying it??
ar they sick?? having mental prblms?? or wat reason??
jus cant figure out till nw...
humans can be so scary sumtime, of cos there ar good souls around... jus lik mi wahahahahahahaha.... okok candy n min dun puke...
haiz cant they discover de cuteness, de wonderful thing of pets??
lik mi dog, althou blur, greedy, act lik a pig bt that is y he is so cute wat.. de blur blur look makes mi wanna hug him so tightly everytime.. den de guilty look, wen he dun dare 2 look at u... jus saying it wil make mi smile... i m nt saying u mus love them, if u dun lik pets, leave them alone dun hurt them ma...
in mi life, jus teling mi abt de people hu abused pets n children n all de rapists, mi claws would shoot out, goosebump wil come n i wil feel lik punching sum1...
haiz.. i wil haf 2 understand there ar devils around... so tats all... hopefully no1 i noe wil be de devil ba...

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Monday, August 08, 2005

saw min's drawing.. feel like creating one of mi own 2... so watch out for it ba..
Part 1
well well well let mi c ware 2 begin 4 mon's outing.. i met up wif candy 1st after sch den we went 2 eat sakae sushi, den tok n tok n tok... after tat we decided 2 go ply pool den we went up 2 ply awhile and candy lose 4 rounds.. hw mani rounds did we ply?? 4 rounds.. wahahaha... actuali nt mi skill is gd, mi is lousy bt candy is worst so... den we wen kbox.. wat a crowd, was waiting abt 45 mins be4 we can go in n sang onli abt 3 hr plus... cos no choice they say is National day eve..
Part 2
we went 2 mit up wif miss airpork after singing den met wif min's frens: joanna, ben and desmond if i m nt wrong.. starting was quite weird ba den summore i was having mi usual gastric pain so mi mood was at de pissed off level.. den i walk in agony 2 marina square ware they ply pool... mi gastric den wave gdbye 2 mi .... FINALLY!!!
Part 3
i can say part 3 is de most anticipated event.. we were going to esplanade birthday bash 2 dance bt since we arrive there quite early, we sat down n ply de "secret number" n luck was on mi side ba... cos i did nt even once got de number.. heeheee... aniway jus wen we ar abt to ply "007" (quite topid game) we hear de jamming of noise n realise we ar at de wrg place... i noe i was too excited cos i was walking quite fast n kept hurrying u guys haha.. bt i didin't wan 2 mis out aniting...
de party started, initially i was quite disappointed cos veri few pple was actuali dancing, we managed 2 squeeze 2 de center n shake abit here n there.. as time goes by, we started 2 "warm up" n den we were dancing!! bt it was realli fun... i wish it was longer cos i haven dance enuf bt den midnite struck n it all ended.. wif fireworks as de consolation prize.. luckily due 2 candy we managed 2 get a free ride hm.. took a bath n surf de net awhile n after watching de taped show, i fell alseep on my comfy bed.. had a nice dream.. sort of..

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Saturday, August 06, 2005

jus a tot occur wen i was looking thru sum1's blog... it shows herself wif her best friend.. i jus wonder hw do we define best friends??

time?? hw long we noe tat person??

hw enjoyable to be wif one another??

owen face wif problems n de person is willing to help??

or wen de person noes your every little secrets??

i dunnoe, mayb de combination of de 4 factor ba.. actuali i realise mi n mi besties canot be counted as the best of de besties, bt we can be counted as unique or even special... mayb it is due 2 our personailty ba.. nt every1 has such desirable personalities wahahaha.. i shld say undesirable personalities...

for example: most gals wil be like one of mi besties "CANDY", simple, dun tink much, gif everyone a very "bright" impression, even if they dun like u they wil stil appear as if they like u, sociable n dumb (haha jk onli),

bt at least we haf mi n jiamin wahahahaha.. (de extreme) (whether you hate us or love us type)

(or whether we love or hate you type) to be blunt de nt very nice character type...of cos we ar gd in ways bt dun expect us to go around hugging pple and teling them hw beautiful they are, speak softly...or hiding our displeasures.. we wont go around offending pple, bt we like 2 be ourselves ba nt wearing any mask...

imagine putting 3 of a kind of candy, i bet de frenship wont be tat special ba, it wil be FAKE..

actuali jus 2 put it simply, de chemistry between 3 different extreme character n personality do add magic to a frenship..

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Friday, August 05, 2005

so happy.. 2day min ask mi if i wanted to go 4 an interview, beginning i was nt veri interested lar.. bt since she wan go den go lor.. wen we reach there i was quite happy with de working environment.. de working rate is high 2 and food ar provided, so gd rite?? n heard it wont be veri busy n only short wrking hours... suit mi jus well... de only prblm is the location and the requirement of bunning up mi hair ba bt de rest i m very very pleased... hopefully everyting wil go well and min n i wil get de job!!! den we can wrk and go hm 2gether... so tat all ba... if i really 100% confirm get de job i wil post again...

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Tuesday, August 02, 2005

i m so happy!!! mi bro won a lucky draw... he won a ipod mini and a dvd player, tat means he will be giving mi his creative zen mp3 le... wahahaha... i rmb last time wen we went for a charity dinner we will be given a number each, there will be lik a lucky draw after de dinner.. then mi n mi bro wil tak de tickets from our family members and see whether we are choosen.. bt dunnoe why everytime de number called de ticket will be at mi bro's side and i wil not haf a chance of going to de stage to collect de prize or shout "here!! de ticket is here!!" haiz... i guess i haf no luck in these kind of thing ba...
been emotionally tired these days.. nt used to it.. "nt use to wat??".. heeheehee nt going 2 tel u... *smile* bt i guess u wont wan 2 noe either... i end here le ba..

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