Lost In Beauty-

Sunday, July 31, 2005

haiz... mi com had been down these few days so angry.. luckily it is okay nw le.. erm let mi see wat to update wif.. i had a slumber party at candy's house and it was so fun.. especially the taking fotos part wahhahahaha... bt next time hopefully it will be a pyjamas party cos it is quite uncomfortable to wear jeans and sleep... and i will think of more theme den we can tak pics.. bt i reserve de bed hor, u veri clever hor min.. pretend to be asleep den tak de bed.. next time i will kick u down... wahahaha...
aniway tat all le ba... some things canot be update in a blog u noe.. *evil grin*

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Sunday, July 17, 2005

i m sad... veri sad veri sad... jus heard a veri veri sad news... luo zhi xiang aka xiao zhu his father pass away le.. n i was crying all de way wen i read de news.. cos his father battled de cancer n he didn't wan 2 go... he said at his deathbed tat he cant bear 2 leave xiao zhu, his wife n everyting... den after xiao zhu see his father in tis state 4 abt ten over hrs, he cant bear his father 2 hurt til nw... so he said, "dun worry leave peacefully, i wil take care of mum n work hard, i wil wan 2 be ur son in de next life" his dad drop a tear, n breathe his last breath...
i can practically feel hw hurt n sad xiao zhu is... hw painful 2 see ur loved one breathe their last breath... haiz jus dun understand.. if we al got 2 die one day, wat for gif ur life in de beginning...
we are destroying de world, killing pple wif al de terrorists, bombing here n there... there ar no meaning y we shld be in tis world... there shld be nth... nth at all... jus darkness..
we wont feel a ting, we dun even exist... n it wil al be it...
P.S. sori if de entry is too "sad" bt i m reali sad wen i see de news...

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so sucks.... been sick frm tue nite up to fri morning.... it happens all de time, wen it is schooling time, nth wil happen bt wen it is de hols, i wil fall sick... shit...

haiz nth 2 update cos i haf been hm de whole wk, onli fri wen i went tmart 2 get sum grocery n some movies 2 watch.. i sort of became addicted 2 movies.. i love watching movies n television dunnoe y... n wen i finish watching de show, i wil surf de net den after tat i wil ply mi gameboy n slp...

wat a boring life bt hei hei, i enjoy leh...

so much 2 do bt due 2 age n studies n money constraint, i wil haf 2 bear...

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Monday, July 11, 2005

a veri sad new.. mi superstar is out.. bt thankfully, he will haf another chance during de revival round.. i was actuali searching 4 his fansite n frenster acc n aniting on him lar... i found all tat i wanted 2 find, n i eventually join de website fanclub cos i wanna noe more tings abt him, n i tot of going mediacorp 2 watch his performance... bt de sad ting is he is in a relationship!!! haiz, such a cute guy lik him , no surprise he is taken.... it makes mi wonder sumtime, there ar stil guys lik him, hu can sing n look gd, bt mayb around a corner sumware... we haf 2 go search 4 it... wahahahaa...
n at de same time i realise i lik guys wif talent nt onli looks... i was watching de cancer charity show n saw JJ lin jun jie, thou he is nt a dian xing shuai ge, bt reali i was captivated by his talent n voice... i compared him wif a 100% shuai ge bt sing lik a frog, i prefer de one tat can sing...
so tat all.... hopefully i can mit mi talented prince 1 day...

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Thursday, July 07, 2005

hehee wow... went k singing 2 days in a row wif candy.. we went 4 jack place after her exam bt de food there nt very de NICE.. especially de soup, tasteless!!! after lunch we went 2 tak neoprints, quite ok lar bt nt veri satisfied wif 2 of de pic.. we den went this fashion, jus wen candy say she dun wan 2 buy ani ting, she bought a jacket...*deserve 2 be slap*... den we 2 go k singing frm 2-6pm... had so much fun there, so mani songs 2 sing!!! so we sing n sing n sing, regardless if we "break yin", went off pitch we jus kept singing wahahaa... wen it is nt ur turn 2 sing, we had sumting 2 do also, tat is 2 laugh at de person hu is singing or add some words in de song.. like before, we get emotional during de ye zhi MTV, n de MARS OST songs... be4 we start we decided 2 try a duet wif yuan dian, thou we nt veri familiar wif de song, bt we fell in luv wif de song n decided 2 learn de song, n sing de duet nxt wk...finally after noeing each other 4 a few yrs, we stil haf secrets each other do nt know, bt knew le while having lunch... tat is "candy, u stil rmb de concert, de drama serial n hosting??" wahahaha.... topid sia bt actuali very fun wan leh... so tats all... looking 4ward 2 de nxt k singing...

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Wednesday, July 06, 2005

it was alrite til i saw a frenster testimonial... if u tink going clubbing is more impt or more enjoyable den going out wif us (which is once in a blue moon)... so be it... i wont say aniting animore, cos i haf nth 2 say animore... i wont be sad or angry or aniting animore... it is juz nt worth it...

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SuperStar Candy!!!
dun be mistaken i dun meant candy is de superstar wahaha... i mean 2day concern of candy as well as de show project superstar...
i n candy went out 2 k-song, haiz rice nt nice bt pay moni de leh of cos muz finish... den 3 hrs nva sing enuf leh cos lik quite long nva k song le...
den we went 2 tmall, n tks 2 mi de stylist of candy, i manage 2 turn a simple candy 2 sum1 nt simple... very nice nia bt very EX.. bt she can afford lor bt it is gd 2 invest in a gd skirt... haiz i was so touched cos is like mi creation... den in mi mind i was shouting out hw clever i m.. wahahahaha...
den HAHAHA... after going out i went hm den watch de anticipated project superstar!! oMG.. thou candy wei cong nt there bt... got mi DERRICK.. he is SOOOO cute n handsum... i was practically shouting n clapping alone in mi hse wahahaha... boYs that can sing n look so gD is a rare gem nowadays... no matter wat he is mi superstar le... *blush*

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Saturday, July 02, 2005

another guy caught mi heart...
tat guy is.. FUKUYAMA!!!! i love him love him love him!!!!! he is nw starring in de jap drama serial the "beauty & de beast" u can catch him every sat ch u at 14.30pm... he is so so so so so so cute.... handsome and cute jus like mi zaizai... y is there no guy like tis in reality WHY????
do depressed... haiz bt nvm... jus ONE day... *evil grin*
aniway outing 2day is cancel due to... expected 2 flare up bt after consideration, it is bad 4 mi health, n furthermore i belief tis wont be de last time... i cant possibly flare up everytime, cos after i do tat, a email will cum along, den everyting wil be ok... den it wil happen again, dun trouble ani1 2 write pointless email... spare every1 frm trouble...
*note* i m nt unreasonable, u had ur reason, bt it mus cum sincerely... reason dun cum on tat day, and dun make empty promises saying u wil accompany some1, and lastly jus say u dun feel lik going, wif ur reason we can actuali stil go other place if u reali wanna go out... i m nt topid...
*p.S* n i m nt angry, n nw i dun nid ani1 2 tel mi ware i stand in their heart, or worrying whether i m replaced, or getting jealous n everyting, we haf grown up...

close as sister?? mayb last time i wil feel tat YES!!! bt nw... is there true friendship?? yes... bt is there trust?? no... de most imp factor is nt there... trust is ware even if i leave 4 abt 5 yrs wen i cum back i stil noe no matter wat i m stil top in ur list, i belief we all wil stil qns whether we ar de top ba or might haf known some1 we click better... nvm... we stil haf a long way 2 go n build de trust... de foundation is here...

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